He never needs a crown....

⚫The sweetest thing in life is love, and love only exist in God.

My sweetest babies no one in all existence loves you the way I or your daddy will, no one except for the one who holds you now so dear to him. Life will be everything, beautiful, crazy, too much, unsatisfactory. All of the words you can dream up except for one. Life will never be pointless. When you get here I can only promise you love and as you grow my prayer is that God shows you, as he has me, to love with every ounce of you. God will reign in your life whether you ask him too or not. I want to try and save you some time by letting you know God's will wins every time. The only place you, my sweets, will ever be happy is covered by his grace and peace. Every other place you'll find will only be warmed by your presence and it will not take you long to realize that that simply isn't enough nor will it ever be. Let me say I can now recognize that getting to the place where you can see God clearly will take time and trials and if you are anything like your mother :/ some fighting God on what his plan might be, BUT I have complete confidence in the Alpha and Omega. He wins and his desire for your life will be what he calls it to be. I want to pre-apologize for my moments of weakness when I hussel you for not yeilding to my plans. I will need reminding too.

Life is a sea full of peasants and Im just twerking my way through it....

I found that gem of a saying on instagram. One of Wayne's 13 year old friends had it as her description. I tend to get slightly nervous when I think of my sweet beautiful babies(who of course only exist in my dreams for now). I wonder what their little laughs will sound like, I wonder who will get my nose if anyone, I so far am the only Thomas to have one. I wonder will they love music and dancing as much as I do. Will they be lovers or fighters? Most of all as I reflect on the past two years of my life I wonder what roads God will send them down in order for them to find themselves. The "themselves" that God created them to be, the people that even though they aren't here yet, the course of their lives is the same today as it will be 50 years from now. I have been so Blessed to have the family I have and I owe all I am to them and if I were to say that to them they would say I owe it all to God. We are both right. God is the only reason our lives have been blessed, but my parents made a decision that has allowed for God to shape my life and the life of those sweet faces I dream about. So this Blog for me is a way to remember all the life lessons that have demanded self realization in me so that I may share those things with my littles when throws them trials. Some things my parents were deadddddd on about and others have been Patrice induced lessons. Heartache brought on my foolishness, but I wouldnt trade it for a moment because I am right here right now madly in love with my future and grateful for ever last tear.